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Transformation. I went under a transformation today. It was nothing special, infact I can't really quite tell the difference, but nonetheless. My hair fell down to the floor as she cut away at it.

It was a quick job. Unsure if it is good, or not. I always find that though. After a hair cut I tend to have to wait a day before I can truely pass judgement. The next day is crucial. Having washed and styled your hair on your own without the help of a hair dresser, we come into the moment of truth.

Has my transformation been worth while? Am I really transformed?

Going to the hair dressers is for me, a way of removing layers of the past, and to create something new. I dread going there I must admit. It's the conversation I hate. All the same questions that they have stored into their head, and they pretend to be interested in your life. Maybe they are? Maybe I'm being harsh. I suppose part of the actual job of being a hair stylist, cutter, etc, is that you have a relationship with the client, their personal life included.

I can't help but to imagine though, that as I sit there, staring at my reflection in the mirror, that there are hundreds of women and men, who at this precise moment are doing exactly the same thing.

They are transforming.

Becoming anew. Becoming someone else. It's beautiful. It really is. It's not that we are turning into creatures of unknown, nor are we emerging as new born, it is just a clensing of the past. From dead ends.

Yes. Dead Ends. Thats is completely.

I have removed the Dead Ends of so many things within my life. My past relationship, my living situation, my work place, my heart, soul, body and mind. Removed.

And in its place...?

A new me. A transformed me.

It reminds me of a performance I saw at the Edinburgh Festival last year, it was called Transformation. It was a one woman show, and she told her life story both through narration and through physical movement. The story was amazing. Poignant. And beautiful. How she transformed from a teenager into the woman she is today. I really admired the fact that a form of her dealing with certain issues within her life was to actually present it through this form of theatre.

So here I am. Telling you, my lover, that I am transforming for you. With you, and because of you.

Let's hope this transformation doesn't wear thin too soon.
With love
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