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The future is looking good for the boy who calls himself Jakey.


I can't believe that I've waited over a week to get my lazy ass around to making an entry about my fantastic news. So lets cut the crap and get to the point.


I'VE BEEN ACCEPTED INTO ROSE BRUFORD


For those of you who fail to understand what Rose Bruford is, or understand the full extreme of the sentence above, let me explain.


Rose Bruford is one of the Drama Schools which is in the UK, England. It may not be the most famous but its still considered very high within the Theatre world that exists... And your's truely shall be attending there in September 06.


I auditioned for the Acting course about a month ago now. It's a tough course to get into... very tough. And I didn't get in. Rejected in the first part of the audition process. On average 2000-3000 people apply for that single course. There are only 26 places. Now you can see how tough it is.


I waited for my rejection letter, and within a week or two it had finally arrived. But there is more to this tale. The course leader of the European Theatre Arts course had seen my application and thought that I fitted the academic profile that they are looking for and invited me to attend an interview/audition. WOW.


This was another attempt at getting into Rose Bruford, which from my very first open day I attended I knew I wanted to go. I *dreamed* of going there. So it wasn't the same course as before, but it sounded interested, and its all experience. So I went along.


It turned out that Calum in my drama class, who had also auditioned for the Acting course had also been given an interview/audition on the same day. Nifty. So we went along. It turned out that 20 people had been called for it, and there were only 2 boys. Calum and myself. How odd and freaky for us to know each other, come from the same college, same drama class, for the same audition/interview call!


We had this talk with the Course Leader about the course, seen as we hadn't chosen that choice in the first place we didn't know about the course. I sat there listening and every minute that passed I thought: WOW - This course is amazing! Why hadn't a chosen it in the first place.


One of the hightlights is in the second year you go and spend 3 months in another drama school in Europe and undertake a play under the direction of another school. How amazing is that?! The course also is exactly what I've been looking for. Learning about some amazing playwrights - studying totally differently. The whole course is geared towards the understanding of how cultorial, social, and languages are used in Theatre. Apparently the course is VERY intense and they put on some "Amazing, yet wacky play" as a Second Year Actor told us while we where there.


Anyways.. I had my audition and I mucked up and really didn't think I got in. However the next day I had recieved an email from UCAS [the way to apply to these places/uni's] saying that my application had changed.. I knew it was Rose Bruford but it either meant a yay or a nay. Can you imagine how surprised I was to find the following:





Conditional means that I have to get the conditions that they outline. Which is 280 Points.. for those of you who aren't from the UK. That means that I need to get a minimum of B B C in my final A Level Grades. Hopefully I will be able to achieve them I WILL achieve those grades, if I want to go to Drama School then I don't get a choice!


So the boy who has spent many an hour laying in bed dreaming of a day when he can say that he is going to drama school can finally say "I've done it".


*Runs about naked* woooooooo! I'm still very much in shock and excited and everything, all at once! I can't believe it! *phew* I'm in.


In other news my Drama Exam [my last ever drama practical at my college] went VERY well. Is it wrong for me to jinx it by saying that I think we may have gotten A's for it? It was THAT good. Who would have thought that a play about the treatment of Jews during the Second World War would have been ... so much fun to play around with!


Thanks for everyone's support on the last entry with me being all stressed... I'm not free of stress. For the next 2 weeks over Easter at least. Then I have my Performing Arts Practical. Oh dear lord.


*hugs*


luvs

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I would be lying if I said that I wasn't stressed. I'm currently a ball. Big, round, rather fat ball. Not any sort of ball, oh no.. I'm a big, round, rather fat ball of STRESS.


*sighs* This is what happens to a boy when he finally realises that his Drama A Level Practical Exam is a week away, with his play currently not even ready to perform, and the amount of hours left of rehearsals are slowly, oh so very slowly [but truthfully quite quickly] slipping away through his fingers.


*mimics time falling through fingers*


HELP


"It will be alright on the night" Hmm, I'm not even at the stage where I think it will run alright on the night. Perhaps its just best if people tune in after a week and see what I have to say about it.


On a slightly lighter note: I think I'm just about to get myself in another relationship... me and Rob are moving pretty fast, especially after going to his friends birthday party with him. Mmm.. the memories. But even so.


I shall report back when I feel less tired, less stressed, and less sexually frustrated. Yes. I am.


*hugs*


Thanks for reading,
luvs

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I need to get back into blogging, so I have some free time, so as they say "There is no time like the present" - So I'm here, again.


The last couple of days have been very interesting to say the least, interesting in the 'lonely hearts' sense. So it's been 2 months since the break up of me and Tom [the offical break up only being 1 month] Now that I've written that down I'm worried... I thought it was ALOT longer than that. I feel bad. Let me explain.


Since the break up of me and Tom of course I was down, more than down, and that has been fully explained in previous entries, and I have my break away from everything, and I really needed it. However I was looking to "date" again. That doesn't convey what I see it as. I wanted to see more people, meet new people, get a social life, but most of all Enjoy it.


So since then, I have met new people - I have tried to gain a social life and I have been having oddles of fun. If I thought last week was very spontainius [sp?] - then the last 2 days have been very... sureal.


I got a message on gaydar [which consiquently I don't use for meeting people I'm not even sure why I have an account, but I check it for the hell of it] I got the following message:

Heya


Gonna sound massively cheesy - but rest assured, it's not a cliched line...


Do I know you from somewhere?


Rob x

A few messages later and we were talking on MSN, and the conversation was full of 'odd' things. Basically I met Rob last year at Pink Picnic, he had some of his sculptures on display, we didn't speak but we *knew* of each other. Anyways, yes, we got talking on MSN, roughly from 7pm until 1:30 we spoke. Which of course is one heck of a time to talk to each other.


During the conversation we just seemed to click. If that is possible over MSN, I'm not quite sure. Especially seen as real emotions can't fully be put into content by words alone. Anyways back to the situation at hand :D


Through the quirky-ness - Rob asked me out for coffee. To which I denied, saying that Coffee no. Tea or Hot Chocolate yes. I'm not a fan lover of coffee in any shape or form, so we would instead go to "Non-Coffee" The perfect blend for a 'date'. This non-coffee got changed to a cinema 'date'. I call it 'date' because it was and wasn't, but for the sake of excitement reasons yesh a date.


1:55 - Outside his college.


So we went and saw The Weatherman, the film itself wasn't that great, and the conversation between us to start of with was a little iffy. I 'knew' him by face, but that doesn't mean that I knew him well enough to try any form of fantastic conversation, but we got past the initial shy moments I suppose.


After the film we went into the bowling alley for "Non-Coffee" This in itself proved to be something quire remarkable. I learnt how smart, clever and witty Rob is. Very keen in Classics, and wishes to do that in furture life. It's great to find someone with such drive and ambition and yet be so 'level headed'


He wasn't my type. But there was something there. Not my type in the sense that I wouldn't have gone for him, but then again I'm keen to meet new people, and that means breaking from the sterotypical guy that you fancy. I think he liked me too... Did I smile too much? Were my jokes really that bad? Eeeks. I actually had butterflies beforehand.


I had to leave and go to work, we hugged and said our goodbye's, as I walked up the bridge he walked down it. I turned around. He was looking back too. I smiled. He smiled. - It was a moment. Wow. I smiled and went home.


We spoke again and we organised to meet up again today, after college for a few hours. However the plans were soon changed, and I actually met him at 9 this morning at his college, and was meant to help with his friends photography assignment. But that went all tits up, and we had to leave. However I got to spend another hour with Rob - which in itself was fantastic. We get on really well, and conversation flows VERY easily between us.


So last night [I know I forgot to mention this earlier] I made his this creative bit of art which was an insight into my life. I titled it "A glimpse into the life of Jakey" it included quotes, and facts that you wouldn't know, also it included the perfume I love, and some images of the weird things I collect. It was quirky, and he loved it :D


I gave him this and left for college, to meet again afterwards. We went into town after college, and went for "non-coffee" again. It was fantastic, we get on really well. We have a really good laugh, and enjoy each others company ALOT. But Rob had to leave earlier than I hoped to get home.. so I walked with him back most of the way.


We got to the same bridge as before where we said our goodbyes, of course this was uneasy. Second date as such. I hugged him, and as I pulled away our lips met on the departure. It was one of those moments where you walk away and you are nothing but smiles.


:D


Smiles :D


... and more smiles :D.


So that has been my random few dates in the last two days. He is trying to see if he can meet me tomorrow as well, but has alot of work to do with college etc, so we have already planned our next "date" as such.


I am to go around his house on Tuesday, as we both have the day off. I'm feel very.. 'excited' by this! I can't wait. I think we are going to have lunch and then go into town and possibily catch a film or something. I'm not sure what to expect..


I think this could be going somewhere, but I'm not sure if I'm ready. Actually I am ready but I feel as if I shouldn't be this ready, so straight after Tom..


*shrugs*


I think I will just see where this goes. :D


Everyone needs a bit of a... fun time every now and again.


Well I'm quite tired and Rob just signed on again so I'm going to leave this now.


Tune in soon folks,
luvs

xXx

So I figured it was about time that I posted or rather updated my blog. It's been over a month. And so much has happened and I've gone yet again another massive leap in my life.


However before I go into that, let me introduce you to my new layout. I made it today, aren't I a clever boy? :P Shhhesh I'm patronising! It features my favourite singer Imogen Heap why not check out her music... follow the plug... I keep on looking at it.. its pweety. Even if I say so myself!


So yesh, in my time of absent - many a thing have happened. One of the biggest things I suppose is the fact that me and Tom are no longer an 'item'. After a full months break apart from each other it was clear at least to myself that an attempt at getting back together was slowly disappearing. And it did. It's gone... :'(


Tom fell in love with me over the course of the first month, he continued to love me, but during the last month we were together he started to fall out of love. It's tragic. But It happened, there is nothing I, nor anyone else, can do about it.


However saying this, its not to say that I am not happy... for I have been better. Yesh at first it was an upsetting time for me, more than upsetting. It shock me to the core and left me empty inside. And I still feel that. But its different. I know that Tom is now here as a friend and that offers something for me which is better than nothing right?


So Yesh. I am single. Gay. Cute... any one want me? LOL. Ok so I'm also quite happy playing it single for now. My heart got broken by Tom [which he knows about- and is sorry for] so I'm still a little bit fragile. Possibly?


I'm attempting to get a form of a social life :) I know I know, feel free to be shocked and amazed :P But I need one. I hate having to sit at home all the time when too many other sexy people are out there doing what they do best. I want that. I need to start to enjoy myself a bit more... live the life of a teenager. So in the run up to my 18th Birthday I'm going to get out more.


This started last friday... *giggles* Oh dear what a night. I was going to go to Cambridge and hit the gay pub and meet a few people ... I got as far as Cambridge station before my journey took a detour. :D I bumped into Alex, a guy that I know from the other college, and he and his friends were going to a houseparty, WELL basically I ended up being convinced by Alex to go with him... lol. I ended up in Downham Market in NORFOLK!. It was very odd.


We got to this party to find LOADS of people there... alot of younger people. I felt strangely older. Correction. I felt ALOT OLDER. I had forgotten myself that Alex himself is a year younger - ooops. So anyways we had a bottle of Southern Comfort to share, as one does. Time goes by, and I'm very drunk.. very drunk.


Out of no where in walks Guy, a guy that I've known for 3 years now, into the Kitchen... This is odd. What the hell is he doing here? He thinks exactly the same in his drunken state when he see's me. I've liked guy for many a year *sighs* ... so yes. I spent the best part of the night with guy, attempting to try and sober him up abit and looking after him *cough*andsomeotherthings*cough*.


I ended up going back with guy and his friend Yaniker [sp?] and stayed the night there, I have no clue where I would have stayed otherwise! *phew* So yesh. Thats my bizarre tale, that doesn't seem quite bizarre when I write it - but for me :D Hehee... what a night :P


Is it wrong that I like Kate Bush? Her voice is so unique. Damn. I'm falling into that kind of person... Kate Bush, Bjork, Joni Mitchell, Tori Amos, Alanis Morisette, Imogen Heap... yup, bring on the females! [Thought I would never hear myself say that!]


In other news I have been auditioning like crazy for Drama Schools...


Edinburgh - Rejected.
LIPA - Rejected

Drama Centre - Rejected
Rose Bruford - Rejected.


But what this that I got yesterday? Rose Bruford wish for me to attend another interview for a different course - the Course Leader has seen my application ... "and because of your academic profile is keen to meet you and thought you might be interested to learn more about this course and attend an interview"


They want me to attend an interview for European Theatre Arts now this course looks fantastic! Right up my street, it may not be acting but it is still is acting, but looking at how culural and social and languages can influence theatre. You also get to spend a year away in Europe. Wow. I want it... hehe


So yesh Rose Bruford is my top choice, I may have been rejceted for Acting but lets see about the European Theatre Arts..!


Well thats my update, and I know at least one person *pokes Jonathan* who will be glad to see this.


Hehe.


Sorry its been a while folks... Jakey's back :D oh, and so is Bobakey!


luvs

xXx

A few things to talk about for the week just gone. I suppose one of the main ones would be that today I attended an audition in Liverpool for LIPA [Liverpool Institute of Performing Arts]... the short story is that I didn't get recalled which means that I didn't obtain anything from them and I get rejected. I'm not upset by it at all... perhaps I should be?


I had to get up at 4AM to leave by 5AM for the ride up there with my dad. He decided that it would be easy to drive up there on a Sunday and I trusted him. I hadn't really given the audition much thought, in respect of actually preparing for it... and I know that I should have... I know that. But it didn't feel right. My monologue I couldn't learn very well, and things just weren't coming together.


I knew that I wasn't expecting a brilliant audition but still... I registered at 9:15ish and went straight to a talk with everyone. In total there were about 150 of us I think. Which when you think about is alot! So we had this talk about the course, and the auditon process and it was generally a good laugh [of course all these things are designed so that you rellllaxxxx - and it works]


my audition would be at 11:30 and then followed by a workshop session at 12. So I had to wait around for an hour and a half. Then in I go for my audition [in which they were running 20 minutes late]... As soon as I walked in I knew it was bad. I failed badly at my Shakespeare spreech... in the end they gave me a sheet with it on, and it turned out that I had a different version at home to this one - eeek.


Then I sang my song, which went well.. I think it went all.. actually it did. And then lastly my devised monologue... well that was certainly interesting indeed. They wouldn't have known that I totally mucked it up as I improvised most of it, but it went well... just a shame about the shakespeare.


But in the end I didn't get a recall [but they only recalled 10 anyways!] However I walked out there so determined that I'd learnt my lesson. If I want to go to drama school which by god I do, then I'm going to work my ass off to get there. No Matter what it takes. Enough joking around Jake, this is serious.


I can't wait for my next auditions in Feb, I'm going to be so prepared and I'm going to wipe the floor with them! hehe... *woo*


On a sadder note... *sighs* I spoke to Tom the other night. He still isn't sure whats going on with his head, he is confused and needs more time to think about things. Of course there is nothing I can do so I said ok. In real life, thats not what I wanted at all... he has had 2 weeks to try and think things through, and its hard yes, but he must be putting it off or something.


Anyways, I want to try again, and thats the end of that. We had something so special and I can't let that just disappear, if we try again then at least we tried to sort things out. So its another week of not knowing if I have a boyfriend.


I've now reached the stage where I don't think we are going to get back together. Every day that passes is just another day in which its going to take an extra bit of effect to try and sort things out. Everyday that goes by is like another day that he moves further away and no matter how far I stretch and beg and try to get him back he is disappearing.


Tom don't disappear from my life. Don't do that.


Urgh I'm making myself feel down again... think happy thoughts Jake! Be Potitive!


luvs

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