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WOW - its been forever *sings* And Ever .. and ever. You know the drill by now, I'm busy, I have a social life, I'm a geek and spend all my free time on the net talking to people. Yeep. But I have all intention [as always] to get back into the swing of bobakey and all that random-istic ideas.


I'm in the middle of my exams at the moment, and of course that brings alot of stress, and lack of time for anything apart from the need to revise. Something that I've lacked in doing recently. Eep. I suppose my results will only reflect the effect I put into them! [Good thing I put alot of effect into the coursework and performances!] Maybe I will do well?


I have sucessfully done my Performing Arts, Photography and Drama practicles *whey hey* and hopefully got a good mark on them. I think I have for P.A and Drama, not sure about Photography - I did my best I suppose. I've also done ALL bar my Drama written exam *dances* And considering I've only just gone on study leave/half term, I now have 2 weeks off. *dances along to the Lion King* In the cirrrcleee.. the circle of life.


I'm off to Edinburgh on Thursday to go the Lesbian Gay Bi Trans [LGBT] Conference - I'm going with two college friends so hopefully that will be erm... a new experience and lets just keep it to that. College have paid for the flights, NUS pay for the accomindation which is Uni [will be my thrid time at staying in Uni accomindation!] and then we have to pay for food and partying hehe.


Hmm.. Kates grandad died last week. It's a really hard time for her at the moment, and I don't know what to do. I feel like I'm useless to her. What makes it worse is that the guilt is slowly piling up on me because I cant make the funeral as its when I go to Edinburgh. I suddenly feel like kate is right... college has changed me. Maybe for the better in my personality and openess - but to keep in touch with people its made me the worse person. *sighs* I love you Kate. I will be there, just not in person...


I feel like I want to write more, alot more.


But for now this is all.


luvs

xXx

.. so were we? Oh yes, currently at the gay bar with 3 potential straight boys looking very nervous and not willing to dance. *giggles* And all that was going through my mind was: this is going to be FUN 15 Minutes in and already Steven had been chatted up in the toilets because he couldn't figure out how to turn them on - to which some guy said "You have to push down on them hard love"


During the night I made friends with a 27 year old Lesbian called Laura and we had fun eyeing up each of the boys that past us [oh and girls].. lol. I got talking to a guy called Tim *drools* who had the nicest *drools* accent in the *droooools* WORLD. It was So British that I had to ask him 3 times if he was putting it on. To which he said he wasn't. 15 minutes late and I find he is at college, [as in uni college] studying Russian and French. Mmm... then he had to go and I got a kiss off him, bear in mind it was just a kiss on the lips *damn* nothing more.


I then saw him again as we were leaving and promtly stole his phone and put my number into it and then calling my phone *evil laugh*. I haven't really text him that much since though, but *shrugs* I don't mind, nothing is going to happen, but one can dream.


I stayed at Darrens house that night [who happened to score and get a date?! what the..!] and I found out that he in fact DOES like me, oh and he also doesn't hate me. And we are friends. Yippie?


So that has basically been my birthday weekend. Which is alll good I suppose. I got new hair straightners from sister [2 years running she has brought me new ones] and some clothes and lots of money to go towards a new digital camera...


Talking of which, yesterday father and I took a trip and spent £250 on a new digital camera for me.. yaya. Its all snazzzy and I looove it! I'm been taking random photos and not really getting anywhere with it but I'm so happy I have it. The idea behind it being that I will be dropping photograghy next year so I want to continue it at home, and with my old camera that wasn't possible, but with this super doooooper camera its now possible!


Back tracking some more. I'm no in my exam period. Oh. The. Joys. I've already done 3 exams, last week I had my photography exam [5 hours of listening to music as I print things out and mount them - good fun AND Easy!] and also Performing Arts exam [1 song and 1 12 minute drama piece - also good fun AND Easy!] - so far so good!


So this weekend was a bit of a blast! Kate, Kate's mum, Kel, Jared, Iris + Husand [Jim?] and myself all went to London and saw Joesph and His Amazing Technicoloured Dreamcoat - enjoyed that we did. I really like the ending and it brought back so many memories from when I saw it in Cambridge years ago *dreams* Those were the days.


I just downloaded Head Automatica's album and I'm so dancing as if I was on the dance floor, jiggy it up!


And on this note, I'm off to go play with those boys that I love


luvs

xXx

It's been a while, but thats because I have little effect or time [even though I spend most of my nights on here] to write about little old me. WOW, I just had a look at my last post and that was like 3 weeks ago, damn. You see what happens when you get caught up in your life, everything gets blown out of proportion and before you know it - 3 weeks has passed and your dead to your journal.


So retracking my steps as best as I can, I suppose the nearest thing I can remember is my birthday. Yes, boys and more boys [mm] and maybe girls, I, the lovely Bobakey is now 17 *woo* - what an anti-climax of a year if you ask me. Bring on the big 18 - I say!


My Birthday celebrations *throws some streamers around* started on the Thursday after college when mum dragged me [quite willingly] onto a train and headed off to London. After much confusion on the tubes, believe me - its not as easy as it appears. We made it to our destination, take note that I had no idea about where/what/why we were doing so yeah - we went shopping for a new lense for my camera, only to find out that they no longer sell that sort of lense anymore, and I you can now find them on Ebay. Cheers.


So after that miss-hap, we slantered along Oxford Street to find somewhere to eat. Damn it was BUSY I even thought to myself for a brief moment "Do I really want to live somewhere - where I find it hard to walk down the street?" but then I quickly thought "HELL YES" hehe. We found this Bella Italia - and had a *drools* loooovely meal. And the desert was to die for. I had fun watching a semi cute gay guy trying to do a window display of shoes in the department store across the road. He spent nearly an hour and a half arranging shoes on this stand. He found it hard to do up the straps and make them all in line with each other *giggles*


Then we basically walked 10 meters and we were at the theatre - mum had brought me tickets to see Chitty Chitty Bang Bang - THE CAR FLIES! [with help from a cherry picker and other technical goodies] It was amazing, and our tickets got upgraded because they closed down the upper circle, so we were upgraded to the Royal Circle *sticks nose up in the air and waves hand like the queen* hehe, like a true queen.


So yes... erm Friday night me and Kate went to the Cinema and saw Wedding Date, hehe it was alright, Kate made me all happy and I had really good night so thats a good thing. *hugs* Shame about the news kate got later that night.. but things are working out now, so thats a good thing. Including a new boyfriend, who sounds 'interesting'.


Saturday Calum *drools* took me out for the night with a group of friends. We got into this new bar called Nusha, which was very snazzy [and expensive]... then we [being 3 straight boys] went to a gay club to live it up large...


[TO BE CONTINUED [[in the next issue of moi]] ]


luvs

xXx

If I was being honest I would say that I love you and want to carry you away into the night. Or rather if this was my fantasy I would say that you loved me and would have carried me away into the night.


*sighs*


I miss him. Well thats not being strictly true. I only miss him in the sense of his company. I miss that feeling. The I love you feeling, the feeling that I am so close to you that our hearts are beating against each others so much so that it feels as if we are one. Joint together. Boyfriend and Boyfriend.


I could ramble on forever on this topic, but its what I'm feeling inside. When I was with dale I was with him. I had someone to support me and comfort me, kiss me, HUG ME and just generally care about me. Now I'm relying off friends for that little bit extra, getting my overtime of my friends. Clocking in the friendship miles.


Last weekend I was ill and couldn't leave the house. This weekend I'm not ill and haven't left the house on a social visit. I'm turning into... into a love sick geek. Help?!


So I actually haven't been out, out properly in 2 weeks, and thats not right for a 16, going on 17 kinda guy is it? I'm so full of questions and no one has the answers. Damn you. YOUazy for a guy [ha such a bad joke] and another guy at college. Well if I was being honest I would say that its more the guy at college than the guy guy.


Calum. Fcuk Me. Well actually no don't... but thinking about it. Ever since he joined our drama class a little bit late than normal I've fancied his sweet ass. And now we are good friends and its bugging me. Whats worse is that he knows I fancy him. We ---NEARLY--- got together at the aftershow party of Les Miserables, but seen as I'm faithful [or was] to dale NOTHING happened. Apart from cuddling up when we were going to sleep because there wasn't enough room. But it was all one sided, he didn't mind. I'm confused. I don't even know if he is straight, gay, bi or wanting to even like me. Well I know he likes me, as friends?


Everyone keeps on saying it [and driving me nuts by doing so] how we must have got together. When we didn't. So now its like I want to, and everyone says how cute we would be together, but like I keep on pointing out, he is straight Damn. I need to get this out of my head, its just a crush and nothing is going to happen. BIG FAT LAME ASS of a CrUSH. We are friends, and friends don't fancy each other.


His organising a 'supprise' erm... 'something' [perhaps a party?] for me. For my 17th birthday this Friday, we are doing whatever it is on the Saturday, so that should be good. If I knew what it was. He keeps on mentioning it, and *sighs* smiling. THAT smile. Everyone knows I like him, even he does. And that doesn't help. It's even worse when people say his name and I blush... and it keeps on happening. I was on a college trip to the theatre last wednesday night and me and a few girls were talking about boys [as you do] and one of them said that they had the perfect person in mind that would suit me so much. I ask who... [why?! why? did I ask?!] she didn't want to tell me but after some pestering so she said me and Calum would be great together... Urgh. Thats whats driving me nuts about this whole thing, I fancy him but I'm trying not to.


Ok lets not mention the C word anymore. C word? What C word... *drools*


I miss kate. And that feeling. Oh and I miss my old friends. I saw some of them during the week - because of my crazy lessons that had been cancelled, gave me some free time to nip and see everyone and just 'hang' in the common room. Erm, yeah.. twas good to see Hannah though, oh and everyone else... shame that emma and co weren't there too. *cries* Haven't seen kate for 3 weeks. I miss her.


My parents are looking into buying a new property and today we looked at the grandest place I've been to in a loooooong while. It's an old 'mental place' as my parents put it, which they are doing up. This plas is massive, its split into 7 zones, and has something like 33a of land... south, east, north, west wings... and just CRAZY amounts of money. Anything from £190,000 - £400,000 but hey its worth it. It's Lush-ous!


I would write more but I'm so tired that I need to sleep and just.. yeah sleep. And dream.


So luvs and good night my chum chum's

xXx

Another week has passed by like a burst of light flashing past my eyes and I'm unable to catch it. And yet I say that it has gone by in a flash of light, its felt quite the opposite. I was only either thinking or saying to someone the other night [I forget which - the old age of me coming out] how I have felt the week pass by with such a slow pace that its felt more like a month. I think I'm indecisive. Fact.


Haha, I have to make a list of everything that has happened in the last week because it sounds way too much, but here goes:


Split up with boyfriend of 5 months, gone back to college, handed in performing arts coursework, handed in photography coursework, done my AS Drama exam, caught a chest infection, faught off a chest infection.


Surely I shouldn't have had to go through so much stress in one week?! *sigh* I'm sure you will be glad to hear that the chest infection is on its way out, although I sit here gasping for breath and coughing sweet germs up while mucus runs from my nose. Picture Perfect. Still up for that date with me? *They look at me and say "no"* Thought not. // I'm fed up. In 30 seconds I coughed, sneezed, and blew my nose - I hate being ill. The Attention is great, shame about the illness.


Oh and if you thought I couldn't moan much more... haha, your wrong, still alot more of that to come!


I've lost the hearing [well half heartly lost it] in my left ear. It just feel as if there is a massive bit of cotton wool being shoved down there and its blocked me from my sweet music, and my right ear all the time is complaining that its doing all the work. *sighs* I'm walking ship wreck. If its still like this by Thursday the sweet Dr Parkinson [who I thought was male?] will be hearing from me again.


So I went back to college on Monday and it felt very strange, having to go from 2 weeks of relaxing to back to the old ways - no wonder I fell ill so quickly. Changes. They are not good for me. I was so relaxed and I was suddenly so stressed again. Drama exam on Wedensday, Photography coursework due in on Wednesday - hell lets just make my life hell and put all my deadlines together.


So my drama exam went rather well, what people who don't do drama don't seem to understand is the weird timings that we have our practical exams. We have these almost like 'presentation' evenings where the examinera and an audience come along and watch each other's, but its always in the evening. SO, my exam was at 7:00pm, I feel sowwie for the other group who had to perform at 8:00pm, surely thats not right. But then again I did do my drama exam at around 9:00ish last year, so 7 was quite nice for me!


Well I was going to talk about something but I'm getting distracted by many a thing so I shall leave that for another night, and I've just noticed that my monitor is really dirty.. hmmm needs a good clean *sighs* more work


Loves ya, and leaves ya

xXx